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Writer's pictureJordan Zipkin, LMFT

My Childhood Was Not Great. Now What?


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As children, we depend on adults (particularly our caregivers) to consistently support, nurture, and protect us. When they do, we’re more likely to develop a healthy view of ourselves, others, and the world. For instance, we’re then inclined to believe:

We are lovable.

People are trustworthy and dependable.

The world is a safe place.

Meanwhile, when we experience our caregivers as inconsistent, inattentive, and/or abusive, we’re more likely to foster an unhealthy picture of reality. In this scenario, we’re likely to believe:

We’re incapable and unworthy of receiving love.

People can’t be trusted.

The world is scary and unsafe.

I’m sure you can begin to imagine just how much the latter situation can negatively impact a person. In this blog, we will look at the specific ways difficult upbringing negatively impacts future relationships. We will also explore helpful solutions to improve the relationships and lives of people enduring these problems.

As an adult who has endured some form of unhealthy parenting, you may have the following thoughts, beliefs, emotions, and experiences in your relationships:

“I can’t trust anyone, not even my partner.”

“I’m not good enough and I don’t deserve love.”

"I feel angry often.”

“My emotions get intense very quickly and it’s so hard for me to control them.

“My intense emotions make it so hard for me to just have a normal conversation with my partner.”

“Nobody can actually understand what I’ve been through.”

“It’s a burden for me to talk to my partner about what I’ve been through, so I can’t do it.”

“It feels good to be alone, so I isolate and withdraw from others.”

“My partner always says I feel distant.”

“Physical intimacy is really difficult.”

The great news is that you don’t have to keep feeling this way. You can experience the following profound improvements in your life:

Respond to difficult experiences in calmer and more rational, productive ways.

Experience hope.

Reduce isolation.

Embrace and trust your partner.

Learn to value yourself.

Here are some realistic steps to help you achieve the life you want:

Seek out a trauma-informed therapist. This person can help you comfortably (and at your own pace) share difficult experiences from your past. This can help you to see how you experienced abuse or neglect, as well as how it still impacts you and your relationship. This kind of insight is critical in moving forward.

You also want to work with a therapist to discover healthier ways to experience and express your thoughts and emotions. Along these lines, you’ll learn to separate past issues from present ones.

Ensure you engage in basic forms of self-care, like consistently eating healthy meals and partaking in healthy activities you enjoy, like going to the movies or walking along the beach.